I was going to make a list.
I had it all figured out. I realized that in the process of composing this blog, I had become very boring. I was too afraid to be me and too overwhelmed to write and I thought - hey, I'll make a list. That's easy.
I decided I would make a list of the things I love. Ya know, one of those lists that single-handedly reveals your quirkiness and brings you back to the heart of gratitude. So I sat down to compose said list...
In my head I envisioned myself, pen in hand, writing furiously, just trying to keep up with the avalanche of gratitude pouring forth. Instead, I sat at the computer with a blank screen mocking me.
There are some givens. I love my husband. (Like full, deep, I get those pesky tears in the corners of my eyes when I think about how amazing it is that I get to live life with him, kind of love) I love my kids. (Do not even get me started on that subject...there's not a blog entry long enough.) I love my friends. (There are not words to put around the awesomeness of the ladies in my life. For years I prayed for real friends and man, did God ever give me amazing friends.) I love Starbucks...not their prices, but I love the place, I love the experience of working there (mostly the people I worked with), I love the drinks, I love pretty much everything there... And I love California. Or at least Southern California - I haven't ventured up north yet. But then, my mind starts to get jumbled.
The past few years have been a whirlwind. Two surprise children, crazy jobs that were both incredible and taxing, and a whole lot of life has led me to a place where I don't really know what I like. So, I've decided I need to slow down. I need to start processing life. I need to pause and really experience it all and find those joys and celebrate them. I decided it's time to stop living a small life and really start living...and loving.
I'm hoping there will be a wickedly cool list in a few months. Why? Because I slowed down and really appreciated all that flows in and out of my day on a regular basis. And because I took risks and tried new things and finally noticed some of the things that had been there all along...
Oooh...I just realized one other thing I love: PICTURES. So, why not include one? Here's a snapshot of one of my new best friends, Parker. She gets life and she taught me a lot about enjoying it. And I love her.